Even though I know this person I work with is ACTUALLY insane, and she means nothing to me, and her words should have no value to me whatsoever, I can not ignore her lunacy and relax. I get angry, and frustrated, and I let it get to me. It's been this way for the entire time I've worked here.

And someone, who is (was) my friend, says one thing I don't like and I completely dismiss her and push her out of my life because of one thing.

It's so easy for me to let people go, and little by little, have them gone from my life.

Yet I can't release this aggression and negativity and frustration I feel at the hands of people who don't matter.

Recently I am starting to believe that there is something in my mind that wants me to be a little bit unhappy, or that I am somehow sabotaging myself in some way. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone else, but I feel like sometimes I'm not happy unless I'm unhappy.

And the fucked up thing is, I can't stand people who are like that.